Hi.
Remember me? Long time since we spoke.
So... what happened to you making better choices for yourself?
When did everyone else get so much more important than you?
When did you start making excuses for those around you again, remember what a cardinal sin that was?
You made those Rules for a reason. You didn't want to lose yourself or your identity in a relationship again and lose sight of what's important to you. You didn't want to find yourself wanting more or wondering what if. You didn't want to be left unfulfilled.
And you certainly didn't want to keep blaming yourself for things that weren't your fault.
Yet here we are. The stress is coming back again. The sadness and feelings of neglect reared their ugly head casting doubt on the whole situation. The impression that you're not worth the time or the love showed up to make you depressed, angry and blind to the world around you.
We both know better.
Don't you think its time you stand up for yourself? Don't you think you deserve it? Don't you know you're one badass, bitchin and beautiful broad that should have the very Earth she walks on worshipped before she even steps foot on the ground?
What the fuck, man? You're wasting the pretty! Man up and do what's best for you. We all know the answer here. Why are you so good at raising a fuss about the smallest things but the important stuff gets stuck in your throat!
Don't you know I'm worth it?
Mia: Vincent, do you still want to hear my Fox Force Five joke?
ReplyDeleteVincent: Sure, but I think I'm still a little too petrified to laugh.
Mia: No, you wont laugh, 'cus it's not funny. But if you still wanna hear it, I'll tell it.
Vincent: I can't wait.
Mia: Three tomatoes are walking down the street- a poppa tomato, a momma tomato, and a little baby tomato. Baby tomato starts lagging behind. Poppa tomato gets angry, goes over to the baby tomato, and smooshes him... and says, Catch up.